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Tuesday, November 16, 2010

ACTION!! it's way too late for me to be up on a work night, but my mind is going, going, going like the energizer bunny. I've had several convos in the past couple of days with a few close friends of mine (intelligent women). And I've come to a conclusion after sifting through knowledge and conversation that:

I have been warped in my thinking!

I have created something in my head that's not really there, based on my own ambitions and desires. WWG??!! I mean really? I've never considered myself to be an irrational person. Actually, those who know me know I am quite rational; always considering the facts and digging to dispel any illusions or inconclusive information. Never allowing my heart to overpower my head.

So, I really don't know how I ended up here, but today is the first day of the rest of my life of knowing the truth. Believing the truth, and taking ACTION to stand up against fallacies that are implanted into my head. I have so many words that come to mind when I think of this situation, but none of them are appropriate for the general reader. LOL.

I just could't understand, why now? How? But, when I sat up tonight to think about it...I recognized the pattern! Anytime I am on the right track in life; anytime I set out with tunnel vision to reach a goal...a diversion is created to knock me back a few steps. AH HA! I recognized you! You were you in 2003.... You were you in 2008....and I'll be damned if I am gonna let you divert my attention again! I will reach my goals, and I will finish this leg of the race. So there! You gotta go mess with someone else.

I'm sure by now, you're wondering what in the world is this girl talking about!? Well, just to clarify, I'm not talking about any one person in particular. I'm talking about the spirit of diversion. Spooky huh? Not really. Ever had a clear goal in mind, and before you know it, you've forgotten all about your goal? For example: I'm going to lose weight...3 months later, you've gained some lbs? Ever notice that it's when you get that steely look in your eye to do something good for you, or do something that is right, that all hell breaks loose?

To dumb it is the force against what is good and right in us; against what God would have us to do. For people who find this hard to believe, why do you think that every action has an opposite and equal reaction in nature?

I digress. But I will say this...once you recognize it, it's easier to overcome. The fact that I've had a couple of months of depression here in South Korea is evidence to me that I must be sniffing around the right track. As for what I've allowed to divert my attention? That's between me, myself, and I. I will say this though; Tonight (this morning), the diversion is no longer a problem.

Wow...thank you Lord.

Until next time, Be still and know that He is God.


  1. Do you ever get the feeling that South Korea isn't the place for you to be?

  2. Yes, I do...But I am the type to realize that a person, place or thing is only temporary and is a choice. Sometimes we gotta be places that aren't necessarily for us, in order to fulfill a larger purpose. So, that's how I rationalize the time here! :-)

  3. To Be honest with you I think you are in that place for now to make your spirit stronger. Because sometimes it takes being away from your people to understand who you are as a person. But as long you keep smiling. You will totally be all right. That is something I have faith in. And you being a woman outta of Judah. Means you have a strength in you to endure. And if you need me I will be here for you. Because I see there is a reason and purpose for me to know you. And I am grateful and happy that is so. I can say this to you are doing right in the eyes of the Most High. Because you are a teacher. And that is something that our people sorely lack in these times. Even if it is in a nation of people who are not you. Carry that blessing with you.And let it keep you humbled. And remain Stoic while you are there. I think this beard has my wisdom jacked to levels unheard of! LOL But on the real note don't hesitate to ask me anything. Even if you just need someone to talk too. Because I got your back even when other don't. And remember you are more valuable than rubies.

  4. Greetings sis,

    It's a blessing to see someone come to terms with and grasp a hold of the fact that "they" are the cause for what they are thinking and the state that they are in; and will acknowledge that God is the only one that can release them from that state. If anyone can relate I CAN! In the words of Joyce Meyer, "The Mind is a Battlefield" and the war will continue until WE shut down every thought that does not line itself up with the word of God.

    You are a beautiful, strong, and intelligent young woman of God that WILL do everything that God has set you out to do in S. Korea and anywhere else He takes you. Before you left, you said that you knew that this was a time for God to get you alone to increase your faith in Him like never before. I suspect that hasn't changed.

    Stay focused, stay armored up, and dig deeper into God's word than you've ever dug before. It's only a matter of time before God reveals to you your "true" purpose for being there. Teaching is only part of it. ;-)

    Love you sis and hit me up ANYTIME! *smooches*